So its been awhile since I got back and so much has happpened. Getting slightly lazy for this place.
Well, to sum up last yr. It was not good overall.
2011.
The year I tried playing the good guy and failed. Twice.
To add to that, I made one of the worst mistakes I could ever tink of doing. Although I managed to get myself clean of it, it was still a bad moment for me. Unable to forget, and hoping for forgiveness. Then again, it was very much deserving, for it was my foot whose it was step upon.
Christmas went by quietly too, had to be in camp and it was ok.
The year 9gag stole my soul.
Anyways, thru this bit of time. I have realised that making more frens and staying that way has made life better and slimpler. So thanks for all that have had me around, and tgc for all that are less around.
Okok. Today, I have decided to do up this is so for this one story that I want to remember forever.
Ytd, on the 2nd night of CNY. I was at MAMA's place. Gambling and all (oh man, this yr not so good yr). After the games, afew of us were gathered in the room with mama. It was all so sudden when mama decided to tell us about her story in the past with gong gong.
Bout "how gong gong tried so hard to get the attention of mama", "hanging outside her house and waiting for her", "becoming frens with her brother and uncle", "using his sweet tounge to get on mama's family books". He brought her to the movies on his scooter and brought back char kuay tiao for her family. Till the point where her grandma would prepare milo when he was going to visit. And even her family back in JB was to fall for gong gong's sweet tricks. His trick? Greeting everyone properly with that little hint of sugar and taking it away for there.
Thou it was sweet, mama said. It was not a fairytale story and real life set in after.
Then again, all in my head... I was so grateful. Looking at today, it was very much the fairytale ending I would hope for. That short period of time, I was wondering if the kids had understood what the story was about. To me, I heard a story from mama which was from a younger days, and from it, I learnt respect.
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Saturday, July 30, 2011
Heh, I'm back.
Well, cant say that I have tired. I really wanted to change, and I really did. FOR A WHILE.
Thru that period, I've heard them all. "good guys nvr win", "you'll only get hurt".... Blah blah blah.. I knew but nvr heeded. Till last night, I lost to myself and can only turn back.
Of cos, undoubtly I deserve it and all that comes to me. Yet, I cannot understand why am I not appreciated. Are assholes more attractive? Like when I openly annouced that I was the crackhole of all assholes. Gosh, hao ren nan dang.
So simply put, I tried and failed and now I'm back. Even if it were a mistake of choice, the results are clear.
Oh and another note, whilst there is not progress on this end, another end is showing signs of brightness. I will be signing on and working for long due to a large amount of consideration. Just to let only you know. No one else other than the ppl in camp know that I am making this choice.
Thru that period, I've heard them all. "good guys nvr win", "you'll only get hurt".... Blah blah blah.. I knew but nvr heeded. Till last night, I lost to myself and can only turn back.
Of cos, undoubtly I deserve it and all that comes to me. Yet, I cannot understand why am I not appreciated. Are assholes more attractive? Like when I openly annouced that I was the crackhole of all assholes. Gosh, hao ren nan dang.
So simply put, I tried and failed and now I'm back. Even if it were a mistake of choice, the results are clear.
Oh and another note, whilst there is not progress on this end, another end is showing signs of brightness. I will be signing on and working for long due to a large amount of consideration. Just to let only you know. No one else other than the ppl in camp know that I am making this choice.
Friday, July 22, 2011
The Lion King
Well, I caught the show in May if I am not wrong. The Lion King musical.
Had been wanting to watch it since it was advertised and although I got weary of its entertainment when I was nearing the show, I left the theater and nvr regret. It was just awesome.
Then for so long after, it was always the start 'the circle of life' that caught me and more thanks to 'Rafiki'. I have tried so long to get another glimpse of the show and finally I did it. It made me young and again, then I teared.
Tsk.
Had been wanting to watch it since it was advertised and although I got weary of its entertainment when I was nearing the show, I left the theater and nvr regret. It was just awesome.
Then for so long after, it was always the start 'the circle of life' that caught me and more thanks to 'Rafiki'. I have tried so long to get another glimpse of the show and finally I did it. It made me young and again, then I teared.
Tsk.
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
I'm never gonna be Mr. Right, but I can be your Mr. Right now.
Haaii. How I wish, I wish... that I can be Mr. Right
Then again, being Mr Right Now aint too bad. For now.
Then again, being Mr Right Now aint too bad. For now.
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Dancing..
Today, apart from all the stress from test and army. I suddenly feel like dancing!
Tinking back, I was just too lazy. And now of cos I regret. I would have prolly done much better but too bad huh. time just didnt let me do what I wanted to do. Gosh, if only I choose to dance earlier and before.
Tinking back, I was just too lazy. And now of cos I regret. I would have prolly done much better but too bad huh. time just didnt let me do what I wanted to do. Gosh, if only I choose to dance earlier and before.
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Teaching Teacher Taugh Me
Its been awhile, very long while. I guess it took me this long to gain the urge to come back here for sth I would like to rmb for the future.
Well, i'm in the army now and I cant say I am doing well or have been expecting myself to grow much or change. Yet, I must admit.... I have changed. Grown up or not, I am at the very least, a soldier now.
Ok. Anyways. I was watching TV after the longest time and I came across this ad on teaching! It was almost good, that when I felt sth.
To all the Teachers, seen me change or not. Sorry.
And here goes my list of teachers (I am trying to rmb)-
My P5 or P6 chinese teacher, who often got crazy shouting in class. Sorry, I was one of the idiots who nvr appreciated you till too late. But then again, I cant rmb how bad I was in pri sch, only the face and voice from you trying to scare the shit out of me or the other kids... which I dun rmb working effectively.
At Sec 1, MSS. A Ms Adeline Tan (if im not wrong). Who most prolly doubted me and was right the whole time in the year which I quickly became a nuisance and turned for the worst. Many changes happened and studying was sth I dun rmb but you were that teacher I still recalled. I guess you were one of the nicer ones. Sorry if I made you angry.
The bunch of Chinese Teachers who took my class that year which I dropped it. Sorry. I dun rmb exactly who took when and I did what but it was during the period. That year, I made a call... To do well, Chinese would have to go. But it was wrong to tink that way, and thus one or more of you became my excuse to 'hate' chinese.
The accounting teacher, Ms Poon. Sec 3,4. By then, I was just too cocky. Sorry. Like when you scolded me cos I was not listening but only becos I alr understood it. It was my bad, there was no respect. Then of cos I realised you didnt believe I'd make it. I already knew I would... Cos too bad for you, I was really interested in POA.
The Science teacher. Mrs Lee Tan or sth. Grad yr. Sorry I was again, too cocky. By then, I grew up. But my pride got in the way and again, didnt realise respect. That time when I read the papers in class while you were teaching, I already planned every thing that was to happen, up till I walked away putting you down and making sure that at the end of the year, you would have to stand corrected about me. I nvr knew why I did it, and I guess I didnt behave correct even when I thought I changed.
The Vice Principal. Forgot your name. Sorry, and for the arrogance I showed. There you were, new and ready to make changes. And there I was tinkin 'I was the old cow in this sch'. You want to change me? Tink again. Yet, you promtly came up with the after sch lessons to motivate us. HOHOHO, I was so motivated, I felt you were wasting my time. So, I went thru, slept and made sure you caught me. Tried to make it hard for me but I knew it was coming and took you down. I rmb that Mr Nah tried to stop me and I told him 'not to worry, I wouldnt get you in trouble'. Then it passed and all the way to the end, I made sure you were wrong about me. And now, I didnt understand why I had done what I did. I tot I was all that, and no I was just growing too fast.
Mrs Lee. English teacher. To you, I would like to Thank. I know not what luck I had, I felt favoured by you and undeserving. I changed a lot with you around and I was so much better with your guidance.
The Math teacher during Grad year. Thank you too. I was lucky to have you teach me and somehow I was more interested in learning from you. Sorry when I slept or disturbed the class, but you were a motivation.
Miss Tan and Miss Low. Intern Teachers who came and hopefully saw, then made a good change to your students. Sorry and Thank you.
Ms Ngor. Chinese teacher, around and about the whole time. The only teacher who managed to gain the respects of many who couldnt. She should get an award or sth. From her, I wanted to learn sth I didnt like. From her, I learnt that being a teacher and teaching everyone was possible. From her, I saw the toughness of teachers and how it was not just a profession but a calling. I once ran up and down the block willingly without disdain cos she told me to.
Well, must have been some that I am missing out. But what I want to say is that, at every point in time... Anyone could be teaching sth even if it isnt in a class. But the ones who stand in a class and make sure they pass on sth to those in front of them are the ones who are respectable. I have done my fair bit in teaching and I know how tough it can be, and only to say that one day... I might just go back with the believe that its time to repay what I owe myself.
Well, i'm in the army now and I cant say I am doing well or have been expecting myself to grow much or change. Yet, I must admit.... I have changed. Grown up or not, I am at the very least, a soldier now.
Ok. Anyways. I was watching TV after the longest time and I came across this ad on teaching! It was almost good, that when I felt sth.
To all the Teachers, seen me change or not. Sorry.
And here goes my list of teachers (I am trying to rmb)-
My P5 or P6 chinese teacher, who often got crazy shouting in class. Sorry, I was one of the idiots who nvr appreciated you till too late. But then again, I cant rmb how bad I was in pri sch, only the face and voice from you trying to scare the shit out of me or the other kids... which I dun rmb working effectively.
At Sec 1, MSS. A Ms Adeline Tan (if im not wrong). Who most prolly doubted me and was right the whole time in the year which I quickly became a nuisance and turned for the worst. Many changes happened and studying was sth I dun rmb but you were that teacher I still recalled. I guess you were one of the nicer ones. Sorry if I made you angry.
The bunch of Chinese Teachers who took my class that year which I dropped it. Sorry. I dun rmb exactly who took when and I did what but it was during the period. That year, I made a call... To do well, Chinese would have to go. But it was wrong to tink that way, and thus one or more of you became my excuse to 'hate' chinese.
The accounting teacher, Ms Poon. Sec 3,4. By then, I was just too cocky. Sorry. Like when you scolded me cos I was not listening but only becos I alr understood it. It was my bad, there was no respect. Then of cos I realised you didnt believe I'd make it. I already knew I would... Cos too bad for you, I was really interested in POA.
The Science teacher. Mrs Lee Tan or sth. Grad yr. Sorry I was again, too cocky. By then, I grew up. But my pride got in the way and again, didnt realise respect. That time when I read the papers in class while you were teaching, I already planned every thing that was to happen, up till I walked away putting you down and making sure that at the end of the year, you would have to stand corrected about me. I nvr knew why I did it, and I guess I didnt behave correct even when I thought I changed.
The Vice Principal. Forgot your name. Sorry, and for the arrogance I showed. There you were, new and ready to make changes. And there I was tinkin 'I was the old cow in this sch'. You want to change me? Tink again. Yet, you promtly came up with the after sch lessons to motivate us. HOHOHO, I was so motivated, I felt you were wasting my time. So, I went thru, slept and made sure you caught me. Tried to make it hard for me but I knew it was coming and took you down. I rmb that Mr Nah tried to stop me and I told him 'not to worry, I wouldnt get you in trouble'. Then it passed and all the way to the end, I made sure you were wrong about me. And now, I didnt understand why I had done what I did. I tot I was all that, and no I was just growing too fast.
Mrs Lee. English teacher. To you, I would like to Thank. I know not what luck I had, I felt favoured by you and undeserving. I changed a lot with you around and I was so much better with your guidance.
The Math teacher during Grad year. Thank you too. I was lucky to have you teach me and somehow I was more interested in learning from you. Sorry when I slept or disturbed the class, but you were a motivation.
Miss Tan and Miss Low. Intern Teachers who came and hopefully saw, then made a good change to your students. Sorry and Thank you.
Ms Ngor. Chinese teacher, around and about the whole time. The only teacher who managed to gain the respects of many who couldnt. She should get an award or sth. From her, I wanted to learn sth I didnt like. From her, I learnt that being a teacher and teaching everyone was possible. From her, I saw the toughness of teachers and how it was not just a profession but a calling. I once ran up and down the block willingly without disdain cos she told me to.
Well, must have been some that I am missing out. But what I want to say is that, at every point in time... Anyone could be teaching sth even if it isnt in a class. But the ones who stand in a class and make sure they pass on sth to those in front of them are the ones who are respectable. I have done my fair bit in teaching and I know how tough it can be, and only to say that one day... I might just go back with the believe that its time to repay what I owe myself.
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Since its Today, might as well blog.
Its 10/10/10! So at least looking back, I didnt miss out this day.
Well, in three days time, I will be going to Thailand! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Its gonna be a last escape from rite now, and one last moment before I go on with life! Bangkok and Phuket, HERE I COME! AGAIN!
Well, I really hope to try everything I can so that there will be no regrets. K, on the other hand, I hope everyone will be safe and we'll all be happy and have great fun without being scammed unless willingly or get lost!
OKOK. So here's the story for today!
I got played! Haiz. I'm not angry at all, or sad or even exactly bordered. K, maybe a bit bordered. But, its really this whole prob of doing unto me what I did unto others. Thus, I kinda feel easy.
BUT BUT BUT, how can I get played? HUH ? TELL ME? Am I not the person on the other side of this field, always? So can I say that, being the loser now is what I deserve.... Or maybe, I should look at the world from this side and maybe understand that I should be that better guy I so much wanna be.
K, so here goes... As of now, I dun see any way I've l0st out, jus that I didnt win!!! ROARRRRRR.
So here on and now, I will make sure this ends almost as pretty as I can handle it and make sure no one gets away alive!
Aneways.. I gotta move on now, and hey lookie here! I'm even better with this rubbish going on. Its more peaceful and seems more like sth worth my efforts. BUT CAN YOU TELL ME WHY IS YOUR NAME THE SAME AS MY MOTHER!!! LOL.
OH, and a note! I've tried to make my post as un-understandable as possible. Only readable to me. But as time passes, I may forget details and it will become a trick to remb-ing what that crap all about.
Well, in three days time, I will be going to Thailand! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Its gonna be a last escape from rite now, and one last moment before I go on with life! Bangkok and Phuket, HERE I COME! AGAIN!
Well, I really hope to try everything I can so that there will be no regrets. K, on the other hand, I hope everyone will be safe and we'll all be happy and have great fun without being scammed unless willingly or get lost!
OKOK. So here's the story for today!
I got played! Haiz. I'm not angry at all, or sad or even exactly bordered. K, maybe a bit bordered. But, its really this whole prob of doing unto me what I did unto others. Thus, I kinda feel easy.
BUT BUT BUT, how can I get played? HUH ? TELL ME? Am I not the person on the other side of this field, always? So can I say that, being the loser now is what I deserve.... Or maybe, I should look at the world from this side and maybe understand that I should be that better guy I so much wanna be.
K, so here goes... As of now, I dun see any way I've l0st out, jus that I didnt win!!! ROARRRRRR.
So here on and now, I will make sure this ends almost as pretty as I can handle it and make sure no one gets away alive!
Aneways.. I gotta move on now, and hey lookie here! I'm even better with this rubbish going on. Its more peaceful and seems more like sth worth my efforts. BUT CAN YOU TELL ME WHY IS YOUR NAME THE SAME AS MY MOTHER!!! LOL.
OH, and a note! I've tried to make my post as un-understandable as possible. Only readable to me. But as time passes, I may forget details and it will become a trick to remb-ing what that crap all about.
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