Why, because now.

Well. Stuffs happened, all due to my asshole worthiness.

First things First, Letting go will be my regret kept at the least possible memory.

To a good point of view, letting go would have shortcut wat was to come before she found out all that I've done wrong against her.
That she can go lead a better life without me, that she can live in reality without all my lies.

For me, its good that I dunnid to hide behind ane wall everytime I do wrong, for it no longer counts as wrong without her.
I'd live a life more carefree.

However, I've prolly hurt her the most horrid way possible, to suffer what she does not deserve. Well, in the first place, she is somewhat too good for me. I've made the plans all shatter.
And for me, I've given up on one who was good to me.

I dun understand! This was to come, and its all over now, yet I ponder about her. Have I done the right thing? So many rights over so many wrongs, the only direction I see is regret.

I've LOST! I cannot except it. I wanna do good, but there is no way I can.

Well, here's a slient wish to her, Happy Birthday, one that I crushed. I may not be able to wish you, but I'll pray that you are safe and heal from what I have done. Would a sorry help in ane way? I hope it doesn, so that i'll be hated, then I'd feel at ease, that I've totally lost.

God bless you. And Hope that you can live a better life.


OKOK. On a better note.
I can hide all this feelings and look at tomoro. There is alot to come, but I know I need to cope well, before I fall apart. I need stuffs to patch up so that I can feel less messy.
Sch and work are all that matters now! I need a miracle, for I do not understand the trouble that surfaced.

One by one, and then two by two. I need to look for sth new. Like a big new life or a miracle. Let my life flow thru and I love you.

I require nth but my frenz. Even when looks deny. It was all of you, that helped me thru life.
Thank you SY, Shah And Elwyn. For all that I do not deserve, you are somewhere in that list. For my life (pass 2 over yrs) have been coloured so much more by you guys. And if one less of you were to appear, I'd very much be on my way outta here.