A new round

Well, my life has just gone thru a big turn... And its now nose diving in a direction i am not very sure of.

Hmmm, before that. I jus wanna say that I say super disappointed with myself for being a loser. And I just cant accept it, cos I know I am better than that, yet I failed. Talking bout playing poker, I jus performed like the fishes that I eat. Zzzz...
Henceforth, I will not play to lose... And only play if I can afford to lose.

OK otherwise, back to the topic... I am now supposed to be crazy over the one girl that stole away my life. Its all so weird and fast. LOL.

It jus makes me wonder if its rite for me, what I've done and what will happen here and on.
I dun wanna regret, yet I've already taken this walk downhill. Crazy as it may be, I pray it will lead me to a peaceful serenity. Please.