Rite now

Well, so much for a brand new day. Its thurs nite (fri mrning), but it feels like a weekend.

Aneway, loads happened since last nite. My super duper badass RYAN TAN shit head itchy hand funky fingers also like that mistake got exposed. So basically, I kinda played Amanda out.

Then some sort of terror struck, things between us got bad and I became the dog I had to be. Somehow, and I dunno how, it became slightly better. She managed to give me a chance!
Then later in the day, she found out sth worst and tah dahh, almost died again.
And again I made it thru.
Ok, long story short, it happened all over.
I had to lose out three times in total and yet I made it out alive, I guess she really is into this relationship.


Ok, so the point of today is that, I am a BADASS UNAPPRECIATIVE FARKER THAT DOES NOT KNOW WHATS GOOD FOR ME COS I JUST WANNA LIVE LIFE HAPPY AND SIMPLY DOUCHBAG SCUM 20 yr old kid.

Seriously, this is all gonna get me killed but still I wanna let this out. I dun feel nth at all. Its just a few simple thoughts and I know none of any stuffs are ones that I cannot live without.

End of the day, I am still gonna get the last laugh. But I just dun understand why cant I be satisfied with any of this stuff. Its already more that an asshole like me can ask for, still I prefer being a bastard.

Goodness sakes.