K, heres what

Its freakin 3.30am in the morning. I have a life, I should not be awake, but what the hack.
Work at 8am later on, zzzz. I know I need to sleep, but I am jus so awake, I dun wanna turn around, here and there not falling asleep and end up wasting moments of life.

K, so this is gonna be a UGLY story.

Here goes the tale of the guy who does not deserve trust.
He was never deserving, never worth. Yet every inch of him shows that he yearns it. However, from the undeserving past and self infliction, he make mistakes causing thy misery. Simply put, even his gf does not trust him cos he misused the trust. Then, he had to play with fire again. He just didnt care, and wasnt bordered. Till he was going to get burnt.
You see, its not the char that was the prob for him, not even the burn or the amount of flames. It was only the thought of getting burnt. He was so afraid of the thought of it, that he was squimmer away. Alas, he had to face it, for the flames he messed with was always going to catch up to his fingers.
And he did, so even without fear. And again, the trust that he oh so didnt want, got right back into his pockets.

Now tell me why? He who does not deserve, receives... Yet all the many, yearns?

So lets see,
Fact #1 He's a bastard
(but dun we all know that already)
Fact #2 He should be happy with life and live peaceful
Fact #3 Unappreciating fool
Fact #4 He's a farker
(Well, its jus another way to put it)
So aneway.... Trouble trouble in the rubble, yet he must play with all the bubbles. Take a leap and drop, into the rubble.

Oh in Ryan's context. I went to club when I wasnt supposed to. I got caught. I begged and got myslf a change that by now should totally not deserve. Yet, I dun seem to really care?? I need to know why??

Aneway. Today is the 02, But the next date of the next month. I will receive what I deserve. Otherwise,I will drop all faith and learn to appreciate. At least. I believe all I need is a really really good excuse. One that can keep me alive, just for awhile. One that needs to be a little better that what I have now.